Where's the strength?
Good day. Went out with wong and ben to bugis then to orchard. Finally fulfilled my wish of getting a new wallet and a new shirt. Yeah!! Gotta save it for CNY. Met a number of my man and some friends too. Among them, an ever good looking sec school friends of mine. Makes me wonder why people-guys and girls alike tend to look better after JC. Spent the entire bus ride talking about friends who have drifted away from my life. And this is the reality of life which i have been talking about.Reality as reality itself.
Watch a very very good show. A ton image. This is not an attempt to boost my ego but i believe people who know me wong and ben well should know that we are the type who would laugh at cliche attempts to bring across horror and gore in movies. This show is a psychological horror movie. And it left the three of us disturbed,shaken and probably scared. Trust me, this is not for the faint of heart. Neither is it for the mediocre. Throughtout the movie, we just kept thinking and trying to figure out the suspense and significance of subtle elements of the movie. And just when you got things cleared, a twist pops by. The ending never crossed our mind. So if you are the type who will pay much thought to movies and appreciate them as artistic pieces of literature, this movie is for you. It isn't all thought provoking but you gotta think to understand and appreciate it. With that, you will see why even the 3 of us felt really disturbed.
And Guojun woke me up. Yes. I shouldn't engage in what I do not believe in. What i am trying to do is to bridge a gap. Someone to fill a gap, someone to keep me company. Yes Wong is right out of convinience, i am doing this.But mark me, it is not true that i do not have to strength to stand up and fight for myself... In my point of view, i am stronger than you. Your rationale isn't all correct.Why i agreed, because I wanted someone as well. And so after i agreed to it, I don't feel comfortable. I didn't understand my wants. And now i disagree with my actions. And i stand up against it. In all my strength, I do not need someone to fill in the Gap for me to go on. I can cross it ON MY OWN.Yes i know i miss her though.But i can live on. Thats what makes me KTG. HAHA. Guojun, don't underestimate me. I thank you though for initiating me.
And something else that really spoilt my day. I don't understand how a mother can scream at her daughter out of sheer self interest. Don't wish to dwell into the details. BUt trust me she is sick. The day she dies will have me spit upon her grave and say, "In all due respect, I despise you." And now she is here complaining. With tears. I despise her to the extend that not even her blood will move me. And for that, I despise my origin as well. I am sorry for myself because I have half of what makes her.Sick.Psst.
Watch a very very good show. A ton image. This is not an attempt to boost my ego but i believe people who know me wong and ben well should know that we are the type who would laugh at cliche attempts to bring across horror and gore in movies. This show is a psychological horror movie. And it left the three of us disturbed,shaken and probably scared. Trust me, this is not for the faint of heart. Neither is it for the mediocre. Throughtout the movie, we just kept thinking and trying to figure out the suspense and significance of subtle elements of the movie. And just when you got things cleared, a twist pops by. The ending never crossed our mind. So if you are the type who will pay much thought to movies and appreciate them as artistic pieces of literature, this movie is for you. It isn't all thought provoking but you gotta think to understand and appreciate it. With that, you will see why even the 3 of us felt really disturbed.
And Guojun woke me up. Yes. I shouldn't engage in what I do not believe in. What i am trying to do is to bridge a gap. Someone to fill a gap, someone to keep me company. Yes Wong is right out of convinience, i am doing this.But mark me, it is not true that i do not have to strength to stand up and fight for myself... In my point of view, i am stronger than you. Your rationale isn't all correct.Why i agreed, because I wanted someone as well. And so after i agreed to it, I don't feel comfortable. I didn't understand my wants. And now i disagree with my actions. And i stand up against it. In all my strength, I do not need someone to fill in the Gap for me to go on. I can cross it ON MY OWN.Yes i know i miss her though.But i can live on. Thats what makes me KTG. HAHA. Guojun, don't underestimate me. I thank you though for initiating me.
And something else that really spoilt my day. I don't understand how a mother can scream at her daughter out of sheer self interest. Don't wish to dwell into the details. BUt trust me she is sick. The day she dies will have me spit upon her grave and say, "In all due respect, I despise you." And now she is here complaining. With tears. I despise her to the extend that not even her blood will move me. And for that, I despise my origin as well. I am sorry for myself because I have half of what makes her.Sick.Psst.
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